A Courageous Prayer

Are you like me and have several motivational canvases, mugs and such a round your house?

Words that inspire: "Let the Grand Adventure Begin"

Reminders that "Adventure Awaits"

Encouraging those who read them to "Be Brave" and "Live generously"

And one of my favorite challenges: "Say Yes to New Adventures."

They all have one theme - that is to live a courageous life. I have them up because I need the reminder. Most often than not, I don't feel very courageous. The idea of adventure is appealing, but I admit that the comfort of my own home feels good and satisfying.

Some days I feel God calling me to step out and be brave, particularly in my relationships with other people and with Jesus. I have been challenged over the past several months to be vulnerable with a new friend. Some openness feels good and right as we get to know one another, but then a question gets asked that pushes me out into the uncomfortable area. I then start thinking about it and analyzing the conversation - even going so far as to anticipate in my mind what he must be thinking. I try to catch myself and relax into the open space between the two of us.

It is difficult to be vulnerable with someone else. It takes courage. Each time I share my thoughts, whether in conversation or writing, I feel like I am putting something of myself out there to be scrutinized. But I do it because, as my friend reminds me often, it is where growth takes place.

I am grateful for the many examples of vulnerability around me: honest co-workers who speak of the struggle to stay home during this pandemic; a hurting friend whose group message challenges and invites; other writers who dare to share their redemption stories and a psalmist who opens himself up to the all-knowing grace of God.

That last example is a prayer in scripture that I was reminded of last fall. I think it should only be prayed by someone feeling courageous. To me, it is not an everyday prayer. It invites God to examine one's heart and reveal what he sees inside. We should desire such searching. For once we are seen and known by God, we can be more open and honest with others - trusting that regardless of their response our Heavenly Father will forever love and care for us. To be vulnerable is to be secure in God.

Do you have the courage to pray this prayer today?

"Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts. See if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." (Psalm 139:23‭-‬24)

If so, may you find the Lord is gentle and kind. In Him we can live the full life of courage.